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Today is a lucky day. seriously it is. the sun shone bright and sunny the whole of today. i thought to myself "even if i fail today, at least i have been lucky, coz the sun is up today, instead of the gloomy clouds and raindrops."

the warm-up was ok. then it was the real thing. i was the last one to be called out for the real driving test. my tester was a grouchy old man. he talked loudly in the car, grunting in fact "in front turn left", "faster, you are driving too slow, look at the lorry behind you". when i left the circuit and hit the road, i only had 1 thought - ok, gone case, i failed the test. coz when i was in the circuit, i strike kerb and strike pole and my reverse parking wasnt properly done in the 1st attempt which means i lost another 2 pts for the 2nd attempt.

finally, the test was over. despite being old, my tester walked super fast up to the 2nd level, where the result (pass/fail) will be released to me. he disappeared around the corner and i hoenstly have a hard time catching up. he was well seated on the chair and finished calculating my scores when i stepped into the room.

first thing he said "you did poorly in your parking ah - strike kerb and pole" i just nodded weakly. the thoughts that went through my mind then was when would be a better date to book my next test date (no kidding). then he said, "hai..ok.." and he proceeded to cancel a 2-points mistake made, and in the end, i passed with 18 demerit pts. that is to say, i was orginally given a 20 demerit pts, but the tester in the end gave me 18 demerit pts.

when i saw he circled the passed instead of failed, it took me a while to regain my composure. gosh. never never thought i really can pass in my 1st attempt, not after the last 2 driving practices. The practices were so horrible and terrible that it made me lost confidence - totally. on thursday night when i had my last practical lesson, i went home dejected, my whole mind whirling bout how i can cancel the test date. mayb i wasnt ready, i should take more lessons (i took 19 lessons in all). mayb i should wait til im back frm my trip then take the test. there were lots of maybs and can-i-cancel thoughts. went home and started complaining to my mom. didi even told me "jie, you cant give up". awwww

so really did not expect myself to pass. i guess a large part is luck too. and i realized that the whole morning before my test, it never cross my mind that im actually flying out of singapore the very next day. that was how bad the situation was. i can even say i drag myself to the centre.

finally 15 dec is jsut hours away. im scared of the cold actually. my sis fren who is an air stewadress just came back from LA, and she said it was freezing cold. she wore 8 clothes in all and still shivering. im gg to be a meat ball with all the layers of clothes on me. oh im also quite afraid that my didi wil flood the airport tomorrow morning. Well, he has been a good boy and not fuss so much over the trip. Mom has already planned lots of things for him to do, but still..he's afterall just a 6 yr old boy, whose dearest mommy and lovely sisters are going away for the next 2 wks+. poor boy. i still love you mulitples. we'll be back soon allritey.

Before i end off, i want to say how thankful i feel today. So many of you sms me to wish me - my parents, cousin, sister, frens, colleagues... sometimes i do feel that im a lucky person, in my own way. and im realy appreciative of all the pple around me. my work and colleagues have been helpful and great. my boss who always rmbs to give her subordinates lil treats here and there. i think for the past 6 mths im there, i have received close to 10 things from her - bird nest, rum cake which she baked herself, the recent xmas pressie, souvenirs when she went SFO in july, small items, food, vouchers(haha) etc... the aunties whom i work with - always looking out for me and advising me. I feel like their daughter when i work hand in hand with them. the young pple around my age - getting closer with them. my colleagues are indeed very sincere pple. at least for the past 6 months, they have been treating me this way.

and of course you - my frens. another bunch of sincere pple whom i never want to lose. Thank you so much for the support and encouragement. when i myself dun believe i can do it, you all keep reminding me i can. haha. mainey who ask me to trust her that she too did badly in her last few practical lessons but in the end she passed her test on the 1st attempt. thanks mainey, that was a strong encouragement.

Grateful. Happy. Content. =)



on a sidenote, i do hope my bro will bring the laptop for the trip, so that i can blog and post photos here. Really want to take down where i've been and the things i see for the full 14+ days. and if i really able to do that, i will put the posts up on a separate blog/livejournal/wordpress address.

a little bit of narcissism won't hurt, and vanity isn't a sin.




涵妍。hanyan ....