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in exactly 2 months time, i will be on my way flying to LA. my ma was telling me the other day that its such a dread to wait for dec to come. apparently, this old woman of mine cant wait to go too. then i told her very xiao-sa, we alr waited for so long (started saying bout gg usa in july), now another 2 months no big deal lar.

shit, now im the one who feels that 2 months is stilll a very longgg wait!


Been ages since i last blogged, but then again, nothing fascinating gg on right now. everday is routine. sometimes i feel rather lonely, just another human being in that sea of pple whom i see and meet and interact everyday. then again, sometimes i feel so nice to be able to work, enjoy, listen to what your family, your frens, your colleagues, your bosses etc say and do/did/will do. sometimes i want to be alone, so i deliberately stayed back even though its very much past the office hours and im the only one left in the office (but of course i stayed behind to complete my work). sometimes i want to be in the crowd, being surrounded by pple whom i love. conflicting nature, thats me.

one good thing that happened though is i see how matured my older bro has been, now that he has spent more than 6 months in arizona. he has made up his mind to continue staying in usa after he comes back for ord. he will be gg to vegas to take up casino management in one of the tertiary institution. recently, he sent us a proposal by mail back home. in it, he talked bout how he wished to convince my parents to allow him to stay there to take up the course, which is expected to take up the next 4 yrs. my ma let me read his proposal and though i dint want to admit, he has now grown to be so sensible that for the first time, i felt proud of him. proud of his determination and change in life that if one day he doesnt have enough money to continue that course in veags, im pretty sure i will do my part as a sister and provide him with financial assistance.

thats another reason why im looking forward to this trip. to see what he has grown up to be. its really amazing ah, that a year ago, he just entered army and every wkend, doing whatever he can to get mc and not being responsible enough to even go back to camp. i guess its destined that he has to learn it the hard way.




now that sissy gets her license, i have to get mine soon! im still having second thoughts to sit in the car with her behind the wheel. haha. talking about giving ur family support.......

these days at work during lunch hours, im frequently seen walking down to novena with.....umbrella. for so long, i mean ever since i have started working, im usually sheltered by my colleagues who will bring umbrella and use them when the sun gets too sunny. now im influenced by them, i become one of them, bringing my own umbrella to shield myself. well well, i guess many will say, oh no hanyan thats so auntie. haha, i used to think so. but not anymore. the sun is really bad, i wouldnt want dark spots to appear on my face. ya, i know at this age, we are still safe. but like what my colleagues say, better to prevent than cure. and you know how sunny the day can get? realie horrible. sometimes we cant even open our eyes coz of the glaring sun. so the next thing i will bring out for lunch soon is the sunnies.

a little bit of narcissism won't hurt, and vanity isn't a sin.




涵妍。hanyan ....