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Got to admit that once you stopped blogging for some time, it's hard to get the blogging habit back on track. and it's only now that i realized the blogger entry allows another icon - to upload video icon.

nowadays the lifestyle of mine is getting kinda rountine. what else to expect, work home slp work home slp for the first 4 days, then perhaps a bit of meetups on fridays and then sat and sunday will be occupied and before you know it, u are lying on bed thinking it's a new week again. the right word - boring. sometimes, i wonder why man has to work this hard - what for? to survive? or just to be like the norms out there?

The other day, i was on the train reading this article in wo bao. i think that is the only chance i will ever read chinese. anw, i was particularly interested in this article, which i felt it was exactly how i felt there and then, just that i was unable to pen down my feelings. the article was about the writer who just did a spring cleaning in his room. He took out those dusty and huge boxes of things and unknowningly, he threw many of the contents in the box heartlessly. Then after he's done, he lamented on how heartless he turned out to be, coz these were the things he once held high esteem for (e.g. college prices, medals, result slips, college notes etc). in the end, nothing seem to matter nor left for memorial sake.

i suddenly saw myself in that article. there were quite a few times i also thot that surprisingly, i threw away so many things. things that you have been keeping with you for a very long time, though chucked out in a corner in that box, i thought i will keep them forever, so that one day when i have grey hairs and wrinkled skin, i will stil be able to retrieve them and reminisci my young days. haha, a bit too far-fetched but at least you know you are gg to keep them for quite some time. However, it's like once you set your mind to spring clean your room, all these once self-made wish seem so out of my mind that it dint even occur to me that i actually wanted to keep all these things there for as long as i can.

of course now i have yet to throw away the result slips or past school notes, but after that article, im quite sure that one day in the future, i will be like the author. things that i have thrown away include small gifts in the past, postcards (some even written), some festival cards even bdae cards etc. it's like at that time, you just take a look and then heartlessly threw them into that big plastic bag. and worst thing is i like to receive cards yet when it's time to spring clean, im amazed hwo fast i can throw them away. i rmb that i used to collect postcards or those cards that you know you can get it free at some places; some co use it as advertisements, some include movies 'coming soon'. i used to have so many of them that it filled 2 boxes full but i think i have thrown them all away alr.

or perhaps you know that these things were meaninglessly? no wonder the writer says " 原来我可以很冷血的 "

i like his conluding statement

人是不是老的时侯，就必然变得无情？因为过去的包袱太多，所以没办法， 一定要把不再需要的都丢出去？不然的话，很容易迷失在过去。

又或许，这是积极的变化？因为我开始为现在和未来活，不再被过去种种所牵绊。

Do you guys share the same mentality? but even so, i still like to receive cards of all occasions, haha, be it bdae, xmas, new yr, hari raya (haha), get-well-soon,& jia you wishes written on postcards........

a little bit of narcissism won't hurt, and vanity isn't a sin.




涵妍。hanyan ....