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Saturday, December 31, 2005
sayonara 2005 1:35 PM

the last day of 2005...
time realie flies...
this year zoomed past like the speed of a bullet...(like any other years..lol)
its time to sit on a time machine and let my memories unwind...

first half of the year i seem to be in dreamland. muhahaa. not exactly dreamland but first time like the way im leading my life. started to be a lil more involved in hall. started talking to people whom i haven been talking. know eileen group of friends and from there get to know him and started a r.ship. may and june were happy months and throughout that 4.5 months, blissful, happy, fortunate, loving then to fear, frustration, upset, anxiety, heartbroken. not forgettting knowing linda and her group of friends who never fail to cheer me up. even though they might not know me long enough for me to bare my heart to, they do cheer me up unknowingly, using their way. time spent with em as a big group are always joyful and heart-warming.

second part of the year make me not regret being more involved in hall. more friends made though im sure they arent friends to be with forever but at least with em around, staying in hall isnt as lonely. Being more involved also mean more responsibilities and things to be done but all these add up to the invaluable experiences of organizing, leading and communicatng skills. joined back vball with ruiling and although there are endless complaints coming out from me, i still hang on and trying hard to make it for every training. i guess this is the meaning of passion in that sport ba. however tired or late i have slept the night before, i wil still pull myself out of bed and to the training, be it hall trainings or ivp trainings. and as much as i have kept repeating that i wil not join volleyball again, i stil go back to it in the end. i know its super contradicting. hee.

Falling in and out of love so fast make me wonder if im the one with the problem and it does have some bad after effects on me. but nevertheless, it has its own sweetness as well. In between the heartaches and the disappointment, the shagness and the lack of sleep, school and hall activities, endless tuition lessons and lack of quality family time, im thankful that all these while, i did not realie lose anyone. yes quarrels we had, disagreements and anger with each other were there, but people i love are stil with me and stil willing to walk the road down together. In addition, new friends were made, long awaited reunion with xms vball girls and thus the adding of more colours into my life. These are more than enough for me. :)

As i grow older, i realize my expectations and stubborness (zi zuo) on some ideas and on some people lessen. i begin to think more this year for i know the way i react or say will have effects on people unknowingly. Though i have become more straight forward with what i think and say, i learn to be more truthful with how i feel and not supressing my emotions. Even so, i still long for the tian mei de ai qing - the result of watching too much ou xiang qus, full house and er mo zai sheng bian. oh, did i mention i finish watching the er mou zai shen bian again 2 days ago? muahhaa. and another thing im proud of the second half of the year is the more effort put into my course. i felt its the first time i realie did study hard for the exams ever since uni started 1.5 years ago. and im glad that hard work did pay off. though there arent any As this sem, an all-B+s, Bs examination result is satisfying.

As for the new year resolution, i want to learn how to love someone properly and be treated the same way too. i want all my friends who are attached now to treat their r.ship seriously and may their everyday be loving and blissful. i want my friends who arent attached to believe that someone out there is also waiting for them and with this belief, love will come knocking soon. i want my family to be as healthy esp my lil bro, my older bro to be more dong si, my sis to stay as pretty (but not win me..muahaha...but she already did -.-") and jia you more for her A levels,
mummy and daddy to earn big bucks. and hopefully, the trip to tw with them isnt just another empty talk.

In one simple sentence, i hope everyone - my dearest family, pavilion gang and junwei biqian, ruiling yanbing huixian and their halfs, linda gang, doreen and justin, linda koh, huiwen, nyvball and xms vball players, mayfairies and hall3-ians, daniel and ntu tutorial mates who are shou with me - to have joyful 365 days to come. and dear friends, most of us will turn 21 next year. Can forsee more 21 bdae parties to attend. Its great to see us all turn old together. muahhaaa. it reminds us how long the friendship have been and im sure it will go on for the next 21 years and more 21 years to come.

With just another 10 hours before 2006 comes, memories of 2005 will not be forgotten but packed up away. A new year with new hopes, new dreams, new qi dais will be approaching. Have a blasting celebration for 2006 and i see u guys next year!!! *hugs*


signed off with love*
wilkommen

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說好的幸福呢 - 周杰倫

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周杰伦-说好的幸福呢

你的绘画凌乱着在这个时刻
我像气氛纯白的白鸽甜蜜散落了
继续莫名的拉扯我还爱你了
但你断断续续唱着歌假作没事了
时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
一开始都不快乐
你用卡片纸写着
有些爱只给到这真的痛了

怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心一意一心数着你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻我都还记得
你不懂了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒在旋转着要怎么停呢

你的绘画凌乱着在这个时刻
我像气氛纯白的白鸽甜蜜散落了
继续莫名的拉扯我还爱你了
但你断断续续唱着歌假作没事了
时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
一开始都不快乐
你用卡片纸写着
有些爱只给到这真的痛了

怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心一意一心数着你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻我都还记得
你不懂了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒在旋转着要怎么停呢

怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了
我都还记得
你不懂了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒在旋转着要怎么停呢